Maybe I am just having a bad day, or it's the usual female monthly excuse, or housework is getting to me - but seriously since leaving my web programmer job and 3 years of studies I have never felt my talents more wasted than standing in front of the sink 2 or 3 times a day washing dishes!
I used to like routine. DD was in a very strict one -
I'm beginning to
wonder if it created her or she created it ?! Anyway, when DS came, I threw routine out so that I could cope. Now this year brings with it a daily scheduled event and as a result everything else is slotted a time on my schedule. Which is why I feel like I am a hamster stuck on this wheel that goes round and round everyday - the same routine, the same events at the same time, the same dishes (so that I don't have to pack away!), the same sandwiches for lunch, the same boring food every week !! (I miss my experiments!)
Regular events that I miss :
- Priscilla arriving at 7:30 am every week day
- My 8am call to ZS
- My 10am tea time
- Going to bed after 10pm
- Waking up after 7am
Postive thoughts to clear my negativity :
- Waking up at 5am and seizing the day Algamdulillah
- DD going to school and developing into a person away from me
- Spending time with DS alone in the morning
- Having a hobbitt's 2nd breakfast around 9am (all that housework makes me hungry)
- Kids both asleep by 8pm everynight...... now if only I had the energy to stay up and spend time with DH
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