So what's the problem? ZS lost her cellphone and was most upset by the loss of the pictures she had on it. ..... then she misplaced some keys ..... and lastly that silly accident the other day. The problem with the accident was that neither of us could recall a THING! I looked at the vehicle, took note of what it was - but for the life of me I can't recall. ZS wrote down the name of the company to which the vehicle belongs, but can't recall what she wrote. She told me the name, but I don't remember what she said. It felt like the web we hung up in her lounge had transfered over our minds with each eerie string we pulled.
I've been having conversations and then I don't know what the other person said.... and when ZS was tryingto do reflection on her life, I felt like I KNEW what the problem was but couldn't quite pin-point it.
Then I read this blog about how to re-connect with Allah in your salaah (and as a mum I REALLY need some help in not being distracted). I decided to try out some of the suggestions. I sat on my mat, making duah, thinking about events of the week and making duah for ZS, when .... it struck me! It was SO obvious. As i watched the clouds shifting over the fullmoon, it seemed to clear my mind. It was Shaytaan (A'oothubillah). You see, Mash'Allah ZS has made some big decisions in her life of late, as have I. And he needed to distract her from it. She had become so preoccupied with her losses and the negativity happening around her that she forgot to count her blessings. Mine was different ..... he was sneaky..... he figured out my weakness and caused me to bend the rules ....... and THAT is a sure way to let him in. Algamdulillah for the clearing.... now if only I can find the book that explains all of this and give it to ZS .........
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